I am a very fearful person. I am afraid of things that most people take for granted. I try to ask God to take my fear away a lot, but I realize God made me this way, God made me a fearful person for a reason. I just wish I knew what that reason was. I pray for strength to get through the things that I am afraid of. It's not a fear like of some kind of monstrous creature. I'm not afraid of dying; I know I am going to Heaven because I have accepted Christ into my heart. It is sort of like an emotional fear. Simple things that I'm not suppose to be afraid of, and I need the strength to do those things or I'm afraid I will end up one day just sitting at home scared to go out anywhere. I get embarrassed about things that most people don't get embarrassed about, and it makes me scared to go anywhere because people will see that I am embarrassed and laugh or something. Many times I wish that I were somebody else, someone that was more outgoing, and someone who doesn't have the fear like I do. It makes me very envious of other people to see people not get embarrassed over things that I would easily get embarrassed over. I know I shouldn't be envious of other people. God doesn't like that, I know He wants me to be happy with who I am. And many times I am thankful for the fact that I don't really have too bad of a life, well, my home life isn't bad anyway. But outside home I am lost. I am scared. Scared to be around people I don't know. Scared to even say hi to a passing by stranger. Scared to have my voice heard over a bunch of people. Scared to speak my mind about things. Why am I so scared about these things? I don't know. It is the way God made me I guess. But I know God has a plan for my life. One day I believe I will be able to face this fear and it will be so great. But as of right now I don't know what to do. I am embarrassed to even share this information about myself being scared to my parents and friends. I just can't do it for some reason. Maybe it's the fear of what people might think of me because of this fear. I know God can and will bless me later in life, but for now I need help. I hope that people can realize how hard it is to spill this information out for once, and I need someone to talk to me about fear and I need help with the struggles of fear in my life. Is anyone out there that can help me?

Signed,
Anonymous